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TRINKERFILME
IN BILDERN
(TEIL 1)
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BARFLY,
SZENEN EINES WÜSTEN LEBENS
[BARFLY, 1987]
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Dieses Ding über mir,
wie eine Blume und ein Fest,
dieses Ding über mir,
das kriecht wie eine Schlange;
es ist nicht der Tod,
aber sterben bricht seine Macht,
und wenn meine Hand
zum letzten Mal den Stift fallen läßt
in irgendeinem billigen Zimmer,
werden sie mich da finden
– nie kenn‘ ich
meinen Namen,
meinen Sinn,
noch den Wert
meiner Flucht.
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OLD MAN, DEAD IN A ROOM
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This thing upon me is not death
but it’s as real
and as landlords full of maggots
pound for rent
I eat walnuts in the sheath
of my privacy
and listen for more important
drummers;
it’s as real, it’s as real
as the broken-boned sparrow
cat-mouthed, uttering
more than mere
miserable argument;
between my toes I stare
at clouds, at seas of gaunt
sepulcher…
and scratch my back
and form a vowel
as all my lovely women
(wives and lovers)
break into engines
into steam of sorrow
to be blown into eclipse;
bone is bone
but this thing upon me
as I tear the window shades
and walk caged rugs,
this thing upon me
like a flower and a feast,
believe me
is not death and is not
glory
and like Quixote’s windmills
makes a foe
turned by the heavens
against one man;
this thing upon me,
great god,
this thing upon me
crawling like a snake,
terrifying my love of commonness,
some call Art
some call Poetry;
it’s not death
but dying will solve its power
and as my grey hands
drop a last desperate pen
in some cheap room
they will find me there
and never know
my name
my meaning
nor the treasure
of my escape.
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